...

i looked for venom and anger
and revenge best served cold
dashed in deepest darkest forests pulled out bleeding strawberries with thorns stuck in my wrists
dug my heels deep into the night
hand went absentmindedly first to eliot to feel sorry for myself
then turned to dear lover ezra
hoping to find such flame and arrogance
ah but failed
how i failed
ezra is quiet docile tonight
sighs and even smiles